i want to love (part 6)

I woke up with a start. i didnt want to go to school. i knew what was waiting for me . i dressed quietly and started to eat in silence, always eating alone. i started up to school feeling down as always i had a feeling that today it was going to be and ok day. i entered class as usual and sat quietly at my desk.
"Hey fatty!" No mae started
"Wow!!! No big breakfast today??" Yo Tae added
"Now guys lets not get started so early in the morning"hoo bin added
The bell rang and everyone sat down quietly. i wanted to get the school day over with and was wishing hard to let time go by fast. that was when our teacher came in and said
"Class we have a new transfer student today"
Everyone looked up exvcept for me. Guys were gazing and girls were screaming. i didnt really care. Like even if i looked he/she will have an eye for me. but it surprised me when...
"Class this is Choi Gyun Hee" the teacher introduced.
"Nice to meet you my name is Gyun hee just call me Gyun." the boy said.
I still didnt looke up when until
"Hm.....Gyun Hee you may sit next to Hemi" the teacher directed.
"No... i would like to sit next to Jang Mi Hae." the boy answered.
That was when i looked up and found my eyes upon his. he had dark eyes that mesmerized my whole body, paralyzing it making me tremble. It was a felling i never felt before but at the same time it amazed me. No one in class wanted to sit next to me but him...Who was he??
"OH MY GOSH!!! ISNT THAT GYUN HEE THE TOP STAR!!" hun hya squealed.
"He is the one and only rival Hoo bin approves of..." No mae said.
"Uh...Oh..." Yo tae stared.
"hello Gyun Hee" Hoo bin said cooly.
"Its been a while Hoo Bin" Gyun hee answered.
After a breif moment of silence Gyun Hee quietly slid next to my seat and gave me a warm smile. A smile i remebered. A smile i knew. A smile i couldnt realize from where.

i want to love (part 5)

The classes continued and the day went by. I was on my way home, thinking deeply of what to do with my life. When I heard a fight. I turned a corner and found three guys beating up one guy. He looked about my age, although I was treated like an animal, I couldn’t watch people get hurt. Stupidly I ran towards the fight.
“STOP RIGHT THERE!!!!” I yelled.
“What the…???” one of the guys turned and said.
“IF YOU GO ANY FURTHER, I’M GOING TO CALL THE POLICE!!!”
“Police? Huh?? Go ahead” the other guy said.
“YOU THINK I CANT??? FINE THAN I’M GOING TO DIAL RIGHT NOW!!!” I yelled and started to dial the number.
“Hey… She really is going to call the police” One of the guys flinched.
“No she won’t….” the others said.
“ HELLO??? IS THIS THE POLICE STATION??? THERE IS THIS…” I started
“Hey! Let’s get out of here!” one of the guys shouted.
“YOUR’RE LUCKY TODAY BASTARD!!!” one of the guys said while running away.
HAH! What wimps! I only pretended to call the police and they just left?? Well that wasn’t the problem here. I ran towards the injured Teenage boy and helped him up.
“Are you o.k?” I asked.
“Yeah… I’m fine” the boy answered.
“Ah… good thing you’re ok…” I sighed.
“Umm… thanks for saving me…” the boy said
“No problem… well take care than.” I said and started to run off.
“Hey! Wait!! What’s your name??” the boy exclaimed.
“My name is Jang Mi Hae!” I answered, turning around.
“What school???!!!” The boy asked again.
“Celeb High” I answered as I turned and ran.
“Celeb High?? Huh” the boy said.

i want to love (part 4)

“Hmmm… Really??” Hoo bin asked in a cool voice.
“Let me introduce you to our toy Hoo Bin.” Yo Tae started.
“This is our human toy Jang Mi Hae” No mae introduced.
“Hmmm… I see.” Hoo bin answered.
“We don’t need to worry about our lunches since She will be taking care of that for us.” Yo Tae snickered
“She always has this huge lunch box with her.” No Mae laughed.
“Now, Now… it’s not nice to make fun of a girl” Hoo Bin said.
“A GIRL????” No mae exclaimed
“WHO???? HER????” Yo tae asked.
“Oh… now that I look at her carefully, that is not a girl but a pig? No wait is it a cow?? No it must be an OX!!!” Hoo bin laughed.
“Whew… You scared me for a second there.” Yo tae said.
“I thought you lost your mind in England” No mae laughed.
I grew furious. For a second I felt really impressed. But to think that the famous almighty actor was standing up for me. Just made me feel dumb. What was I even thinking? There was no way that a guy like him would ever stand up for me. I just clenched onto my chubby fists and stayed silent.
“Hey YoU!” Hoo Bin directed towards me
I didn’t answer.
“He’s calling you Fatty.” Yo Tae snickered.
I looked up slowly and answered. “Yes….”
“I haven’t eaten anything since I came here. Give me your lunch box” Hoo bin said.
I slowly took my lunchbox towards Hoo bin. But that bastard threw my food as soon as I was close to him.
“Oops! I guess you have to eat your lunch off the floor” Hoo bin smiled.
“My. My you should pick up the food fatty or it’s going to mess up my shoe.” Yo tae said.
As he was saying this, No mae purposely stepped on the food that was spilt upon the floor.
“Now Look! My shoe got dirty!” No mae wailed.
“Make her clean it up for you No mae” Hoo bin suggested.
“She should clean it up for me. Fatty lick it off my shoe” No mae commanded.
I was not a dog! I was a human being. No matter how fat I was or how ugly I looked I was still a breathing human being. That was something I could never do!
“What are you waiting for?” No mae asked
“Hurry up and lick it!” Yo tae commanded.
The bell rang at that moment and I was saved. I really hated this kind of school life but I was not going to give up just because of some stupid jerks.
“Ah…forget it… the teacher will be here soon. “ Hoo bin said.
“I guess there is no choice.” Yo tae said
“You better watch your back!” No mae warned me.

i want to love (part 3)

Myun Ha and Hun Hya. The most annoying girls I met in my whole life. Supposedly they are engaged to No Mae and Yo Tae. If I ever get a chance to I think it would be these two that I get back at first. These two were the masterminds in what was done to me. IF they said something the whole class would follow as if a servant following the Queens commands. I despised these two the most.
“Well don’t even think about getting near Hoo bin fatty!” Myun Ha said
“Hoo bin wouldn’t even look at her” Yo Tae said.
“True. But what if she tries doing something to Hoo Bin??” Hun Hya asked.
“Hmm.. thinking about another guy while your fiancé is still alive Hun Hya?” No Mae asked
“No… I’m just worrying for him as your friend.” Hun Hya answered
“Ah… I really don’t want to go to work today” Myun Ha whined
“Don’t worry. You have a photo shoot today don’t you?? I’ll be there” Yo Tae smiled.
“You better be” Myun Ha answered back.
The bell rang and everyone was gone. Except a few students who didn’t have school until later in the afternoon. And of course Yo Tae and No Mae stayed. Shortly Gang Hoo bin arrived. He silently came in to the classroom. Standing tall, Face stern and hair gelled.
“Hoo Bin! It’s been a while man” No Mae said
“Yeah… How have you guys been?” Hoo bin asked
“we are fine. We got a new student in our class” Yo Tae said.
That was right… I was the new student. It was my first year in Celeb High. I just knew who Hoo bin was since he was that much famous. But never expected to be in the same class until two days ago when all the girls were squealing about Hoo Bin’s return.

i want to love (part 2)

“I don’t know how you even got into this school” they would say
“How did you even think of becoming an actor?” another questioned.
Ever since I was 6 I have always admired the actors on movies and dramas. I always dreamed of becoming like them being able to express myself able to get the love of fan members. I studied really hard to get into Celeb High. When I got my acceptance I was so excited I was so proud that I was one step closer to my dream, but when I entered Celeb High I was just a laughing stock to my classmates. Our classes had 8 periods but most of the students weren’t in class since they were all out doing their job. The longest time I ever seen them was up to 4th period. After that everyone was gone. We had lunch at 12 which was 3rd period. And every time I took out my lunch box they would all laugh at me, make fun of me and then criticize me of my fatness. It continued on like this and I was pretty much used to all of them that was, until one day we had a transfer student. The popular top star actor Gang Hoo Bin. Hoo Bin wasn’t really a transfer student we just thought of him as a transfer student since he was away in England doing a movie shoot. He was the center of attention of all the girls and of the whole school. His mother was a well known writer and his father was a well known director, his brother a famous lawyer and his sister a famous news announcer. His family was like a royal family which no one could stand against. His two friends Park No Mae and Kim Yo Tae were equally rich and very arrogant. While Hoo Bin was away No Mae and Yo Tae would make my life miserable, I was like their slave or more like a human toy they could play with. Hoo Bin did not know me, and neither did I know him. I was mostly silent in class and so there wasn’t much to talk about anyway.
“Hey Fatty!” No Mae started.
“What’s the matter? Why aren’t you answering?” Yo tae asked.
“Yes…?” I answered in a low voice.
“What do you have for lunch today?” No Mae asked.
“My mom didn’t pack me any lunch so can you share some with me?” Yo Tae asked.
“Don’t ask the fatty Yo Tae you don’t want to become like her do you?” a girl asked.
“Ah.. No Mae I packed you lunch today. Why would you want to take her food?” another girl said.
“Sorry, Sorry” Yo Tae said.
“Yo Tae! What time is Hoo Bin coming?” No Mae asked.
“Hmm… He should be here soon.” Yo Tae answered.
“Kya! Hoo Bin is coming today?!” all the girls asked.
“Yeah. He should be here for 5th period.” No Mae answered.
“Ah. Not Fair! I have to go to work!” a girl whined.
“Fatty is lucky. She doesn’t have any work to go to” Myun Ha said.
“It’s because there is no one who would take in a fatty like her” Hun Hya said

i want to love (part 1)

I didn’t care how many times they made fun of me. Didn’t give a damn about how they thought of me. I just wanted to go on with my dream, my goal, my life.
“Fatty! Fatty!” the students teased.
“Look at her! She’s so ugly!” one girl said.
I couldn’t argue. It was the truth. I was fat. I was ugly. No one wanted to be friends with me. They just all teased. Wearing glasses, hair tied up, blubber fat sticking out and clothes that is all ragged and dirty. That was me.
“Look! She bought a whole buffet with her for lunch” one boy said.
“Jang Mi Hae why don’t you share that with us? There is enough for all of us right?” one girl snickered.
I buried my face in my arms embarrassed. It wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t control the way I ate. If I wasn’t full I would get cranky. No matter how much I ate I would get hungry after an hour. It was like a disease I couldn’t get rid of, a disease with no cure.
“What did your mom pack for you today?” they all laughed together.
“Don’t you dare mock my mom!” was what I wanted to say but I didn’t have the courage, no right. Everyone who attended Celeb High School was skinny, tall, pretty, handsome, and wealthy. Each and every one of them had a job of being a model, singer, actor and dancer. They all had a talent; they were all recruited to a job. Except for me. No one would want a fatty in their agency.
“I don’t know how you even got into this school” they would say
“How did you even think of becoming an actor?” another questioned.

Loving You-please enjoy this poem while you wait

If I never met you, than will we be together
The secrets that we hold will it bond us forever
I looked to the right and you looked to the left
But when we met we were on separate ways.
I watched your back while you left
You watched me leave with my back turned to you
Loving you is really hard
Loving you I regret
Loving you Loving you
I thought you were a devil but really an angel
I thought you despised me but really loved me
What is really you
Who is the one I truly love
Loving you is really hard
Loving you I regret
Loving you Loving you
This is how it all began
Loving you with all my heart
Loving you with all my soul
Loving you until I cry
Loving you day and night
Loving you my devil

Devils hell (Part 11)

The two days went by fast and finally the day arrived. Tae Woo went out for some reason I didn’t even know of but it was a great opportunity for me to get ready for the party. I started to bake the cake the food and started to blow the balloons. The whole house was empty so I spent a while preparing for everything. After the surprise was set up Tae Woo entered. The whole house was dark and no one was home. “Jung Min!!” Tae woo called out. I stayed quiet and when he was about to step up to the stairs I turned on the light and cried out “HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!” Tae woo was surprised for sure for he was speechless. “What is all this??” Tae woo asked coldly. “It’s a surprise party sir…” I answered. The respond that I got from him wasn’t the respond I was expecting. He just looked at me coldly and I started “I’ll clean it up right away sir.” I started to wrap up the party when Tae woo said “Leave it.” I looked up to face him that now he was smiling shyly. I didn’t quite understand the meaning of “Leave it” but I did what I was told. He signaled me to come and I slowly walked towards him.
As I walked towards Tae woo my heart started to beat again. When I reached him my heart was pounding. Without taking a step towards Tae woo, afraid that he will hear by pounding heart I waited. This time Tae woo was the one who took a step closer and grabbed me into his arms. In surprise I looked up to find Tae woo’s crying face. Without realizing I reached up and wiped away his tears. When I did realize I quickly pulled my hand away. Tae woo looked down at me and finally said “Thank You”. Tae woo still didn’t let go of me for awhile until I had to let him know that I couldn’t breath. Soon after we celebrated and when it became time to blow out the candles Tae Woo said loudly “I wish that Jung Min will go out with me”. hearing this I was stunned yet very, extremely happy. “What is your answer Jung Min?” Tae woo asked.
We were silent for a moment and then I answered “Yes.” Tae woo grabbed me once more and embraced me into his arms. He traced his lips from my forehead to my mouth, and I could feel my heart pounding but his heart beating faster. With a startle I moved away looked up into his eyes and asked “Wouldn’t it be trouble if your fiancé found out that you were going out with me?” He answered “Fiancé? I never considered her my future wife. No one but you.” I started again “But what about the school? They think I am a guy!” and once again he answered “Don’t worry about it. When the time comes we will let them know.” With this one sentence he slipped his tongue into my mouth. After that I don’t even remember what had happened. All I knew was that I had fallen in love with the devil. The devil who never hated me. The devil who never liked me. He was the devil that loved me. And I who have fallen into the devils hell have also fallen in love with the Devil.

Devils hell (Part 10)

The long school day was over and now we were heading towards the house. I opened my mouth to say something but once again interrupted.. ”Jung Min..” Tae woo started. “yes young master…” I answered. He was quiet for a quite long time and than startled me with his question. “Jung min my birthday is coming up soon… and I was wondering if we can celebrate together… just the two of us…” He finally said. I was shocked out of all the people he knew why had he asked me?? Why not his future fiancé Chae rim or his best friend Sung Min… but me???? “Just the two of us sir??” I asked. “yes just the two of us.. I want to spend more quality time with you.” He answered. What do you mean by Quality time I started.. ”Shouldn’t you spend the birthday with Chae Rim?? She is your future wife.” I started. “Future Wife??? Don’t make me laugh… Getting married to someone I don’t even love is not real marriage.” He answered. For some reason when he was saying this one phrase he had a face full of pain and sorrow something he didn’t want to happen but no choice but to happen. “If its your wish young master ill spend the birthday with you” I managed to say. “Thank you” was his final reply. That same night I lied down on my bed thinking…. What should I get him for his birthday?? It was two weeks away and I really couldn’t afford to get him anything expensive especially since I just spent a whole bunch of money buying a watch for Sung Min. I thought about it all night and finally came up with a great solution. I was going to throw him a Surprise Party. Since young I always wished to celebrate a party full of surprises and the two weeks was the perfect time.
The days went by fast and our two week spring break started. During the first week I was busy buying ingredients and supplies for the party. I had less time to interact with Tae woo and soon he got suspicious of my actions. “Hey Jung Min!” Tae woo started “yes Young Master…” “About the birthday party umm…” he started “ Sorry young Master, Han asked me to do something so I’m busy at the moment.” I started in a hurry it was now only two days before the great event so I had no time to waste.

Devils hell (Part 9)

The long night passed and the next day came by. When I woke up I found the necklace placed on my neck. It was a beautiful necklace, looked like half of a wing and it was white. I dressed up and headed towards Tae woos room it was almost time to go to school so I had to wake him up. When I arrived at his door I couldn’t make myself to knock on the door. When I finally got the courage I gave a small knock but there was no answer. I knocked a little louder and there was still no answer. I slowly opened the door and entered Tae Woos room. In his room he was sound asleep in his bed with the morning sunshine shining on him he was glowing. I walked slowly towards his bedside and saw his part of wing necklace in black on his neck. I reached my hand out to wake him up when he pulled me and hugged me tight. He whispered “Don’t ever leave me” I figured he was sleep talking and gently pushed him away saying “Master it’s time to get up.” Instantly Tae woo got up, looked at me once and headed towards the bathroom.
It was an awkward morning. We ate breakfast in silence and even on the way to school. When we arrived the students lined up to greet Tae woo and just like always Sung min greeted me with a big welcome. “Jung Min!!!!” Sung min shouted. “Hey!! Hyung!!” I shouted back. “How are you feeling??” He asked. “I’m fine…” I answered. As usual Tae woo walked Chae Rim to class and I headed towards the classroom with Sung Min. The day went by quickly and I still wondered who Tae woo was speaking to in his dream. I got curious each time I thought about it and the more I thought about it the more I worried. Wasn’t Sung min the one I liked, but why was I worrying for Tae Woo? Soon lunch time came and I was heading towards the school store when Tae woo stopped me from my tracks. He called out my name and I turned around. He had a face flushed red and was silent after a call. We headed towards the school store together I grabbed for a sweet melon bread while he grabbed one for himself. Without a warning he paid for the melon buns. I ate them gratefully but wondered what it all meant. I was confused but at the same time the feeling I had before returned again. The beating heart. Beating one beat by one beat. Loud enough that someone could hear it. I was lost in curiosity I wanted to ask him why he was acting this way. Did he not know that doing this will make me want to be away from him more?? Or did he want me to stay away from him?? “Young..” I started but soon was interrupted by Chae Rim… “Tae Woo Oppa!!!!” Chae Rim yelled. Tae woo turned to me gave a quick smile and headed towards Chae Rim. Soon after Sung Min came and we headed to our class.

Devils hell (Part 8)

“Jung Min!!! We’re leaving hurry up!! Tae woo started. “Coming!!” I yelled back. The day had passed and we were heading back to Seoul. It was a weekend so I was planning to just go home and take a long rest. But the long rest came to a crash when we arrived. Everyone was gone… no maid, no cook, no bodyguard, nobody not even butler Han. “HUH????!! Where is everyone????!!!” I started.

“Don’t you remember?? Today is the day where everyone gets a day off…” Tae woo started. “I didn’t know about this!” I yelled. “You didn’t?? I thought I told you” Tae woo answered back. This little devil he did it on purpose! He knew and yet didn’t say anything!! ARRRR!! Ill get him one day!! “Jung min I’m hungry prepare something to eat” tae woo started. Cooking was one of my specialties since young I cooked for myself, “Ok master. Will you be taking a shower first??” I asked “Uh huh so have it ready by than.” Tae woo said. “sure sure..” I answered weakly. Tae woo started upstairs and I headed to the kitchen. Hmm… what should I make for him?? AH!! I know I should make Kim Chi jigae!! Since Tae woo was from a rich family he only ate “rich food” he probably never tasted the traditional Korean food!! I started to slice up some Kim chi I had secretly left in the refrigerator and boiled the water and added some meat and tofu. 30 minutes passed and the table was set with two bowls of rice and some ban Chan (Korean appetizer) and the Kim chi jigae. Tae woo came down the stairs and sat down at the table. “Enjoy young master!” I cried out in cheer. “It does smell good…” Tae woo started. “Just try it! You’ll love it!!!” I exclaimed. Tae woo took his spoon and took a sip of the soup. “How is it??” I asked. “Not bad” He answered. Not bad??? What does he mean by that?? Jeez… we both ate in silence and after the finished dinner I started to do the dishes. Suddenly while my hands were soaked with water and soap, Tae woo came up behind me and put something on my neck. I looked down to see what it was and saw that it was the necklace that I have gotten at Sung Min’s party. “It is for a couple after all” he whispered. “But.. shouldn’t you give this to Chae Rin???” I asked. “It was for us so there is no need to give it to her.” Tae woo answered. My heart started to beat again. What was this feeling? I hated it and yet liked it. After finishing the dishes I headed towards my room and started to wonder what he meant…”It was for us” he said…”It was for us…”