i want to love (part 15)

As i walked along the seashore i inhaled the ocean air. It smelled sweet yet salty, fresh yet very strange. The seagulls gawed their way on the sand searching for food. I took off my shoes and held them in my hand as i felt the cool water touch my toes. as i walked a couple of lovers were holding eachother's hand kissing at some point. When i saw this it made my face go bright red. i wished so much of walking on the seashore with the one i loved holding his hand. But for now it was just a dream. i walked and walked i walked until i lost myself in my own world. by the time i returned to reality i found that it was already 2:30. i got bored of the seashore and was heading for the resort's excersise room when...
"Alone this time huh?" Hoo bin said slowly approaching me
i froze. why is he here?? is he like stalking me or what??
"Dont worry there is no way i would be interested in you" Hoo bin said as if he had read my mind
i didnt speak and just started to back away from him.
"Why are you backing away?" Hoo bin asked
"Why are you being so nice to me?" i wanted to ask but didnt say anything
"Ah...the air feels good doesnt it?" Hoo bin asked
surprised i just nodded my head "yes"
"Want to walk with me?" Hoo bin asked nicely
i shook my head until it felt like it was about to fall off with a "NO"
"Guess not huh? i mean i have been bothering you...see you around." Hoo bin said with that he just left and walked away.
As he walked away he seemed lonely and hurt. I didnt know why but i could help but feel bad for him. He reminded me of me. With Hoo bin still in my mind i walked into the excersise room. There i started to run like a maniac on the machine. all the memories i tried to forget were returning to me. From the day my mother left to the father who got remarried and his step children bugging me to the fatness of myself to the bullying in school to the crazy dieting. It just all came to me in a rush and gave me a headache. i dont know how long i ran on the machine but by the time i was off i had lost 600 calories and it was already 3:30.
i rushed up to the room and ran into the bathroom. I had to meet Gyun hee at the lobby by 4. if i dont get there on time he would probably worry so in a rush i started to put shampoo on my hair applying conditioner and washing up, drying, dressing up and heading out the door. by the time i reached the lobby Gyun hee was waiting for me with a worried expression. shoot. Did i come to late?
"Mi hae... You could have at least dry your hair." Gyun hee said worriedly
"Ops..." i managed to say
"Hungry? Let's go" Gyun Hee said
"what are we having for lunch?" i asked excitedly
"You'll see. I think you will enjoy it." Gyun hee said with a smile
Yup! this was what i wanted to do for the whole three days while we were here. be in peace. Enjoy life and to be loved.